I do agree that there are health benefits to eating less. Especially less processed foods. I sometimes do religious fasting and I also get used to not eating as much as well. It always feels weird after fasting, to eat an extra meal again. It does save time. I would get more done when eating less too. Not having to think about what to prepare for yet another meal is a one less thing to stress about. I think as long as you feel healthy, that's the main thing. It might be hard to think about your health while grieving, but it's important to as well, even if we forget for a few days or so. That is really sweet that you offered up your crab leg to your son.
That's understandable that your sleep has been disturbed. Mine has too. It may take a while to get used to the lack of sounds. I'm also dealing with this too. I am still not used to the quietness. Well it's not fully quiet, as I have the other birds chattering away from early morning, but the ducks used to sometimes talk overnight, especially one of them in particular. I never knew what she was doing in her little house but she would chatter away for awhile on and off during the night and now it's just too silent. Same with during the day as well. I think the mornings and nights are the hardest still. Know that you're not alone in getting used to the silence. It's very hard. Like you, I still think of the accident down here too from time to time. At random times, and then I just cry again. Last Saturday evening I just broke down for awhile when I was trying to get the other birds ready for bed. I just missed the ducks so much. I imagine you may feel the same too and miss your son terribly. Yesterday I was remembering a good memory, and then I smiled, but then I cried. I hope that you have been managing ok. Are the distractions, and job searching helping a little bit? I really hope so. Grief is really an up and down process.
I read both links that you posted. Have you heard from anyone regarding your ad? I think that website is similar to a website down here called Gumtree.
The other link gives a lot to think about. I re-read the part about how ten or two weeks before an animal passes, they will do something out of the ordinary or distance themselves from their owners. I have too much brain fog at the moment but I've been trying to think about if there were signs at all on my end. At the moment nothing comes to mind, but I'm going to hold onto that link until I can think more straight again. I wish we had a pet psychic locally here. I'd give them a try. Do you have someone you can contact and are you going to try that? I do like the part about signs from the after life, I believe in that, because I got those signs. Well, I did in 2018 from kiara the lovebird. I'm not sure about the ducklings, but the plant leaves moving at the exact time that they would have been let out of their little playpen in the morning felt like a sign. This past week I kept dreaming about them. The first time I was at my parents house interstate and the ducklings were in the hallway there talking and I went to them and grabbed them and hugged them and told them how much I loved them and missed them. Thats all I could remember. The other dreams were just regular days here, like I would be washing up and then they were here and I would let them out and it was just a regular day here. I felt sad to wake up from those dreams. I didn't want to wake up back to the reality of them not being here. I remember you saying in a previous post that when we dream of our deceased animals it means we miss them. Do you still dream of your son?
Wow, I am intrigued that you experienced what Laura talked about. It is really scary that these things happen like that. I'm so sorry about what happened to the dog though, and your uncle. Do you believe the little dog's job was to help your uncle cross over? But I wonder why it had to be your grandma's favourite thing to get taken. I get really angry and upset nowadays when I hear about people and animals dying in really bad ways. I question why it keeps happening and what kind of world/earth we live in now.
I hope you do get some answers with your kijiji ad.
Secrets to a healthy and long life - avoid sugar / diary / processed food, go for mediterranean diet (fresh / organic vegetables and uncooked olive oil), do aerobic exercise, fasting and sleep well. Hope that we can live long enough before benefiting from emerging technologies like cellular / epigenetic reprogramming to rejuvenate our entire body. It's easier said than done. I'm stressed, lacking good sleep and eating junk food since my son's passing.
Yes, I have like 10 nice people contacting me on kijiji including several breeders. They don't have my son's reincarnation. They were comforting me nonetheless.
Just like you, I smiled as I refreshed my mind of the good memories with my son; sometimes I couldn't control thinking about the accident and I ended up crying. On the day of the accident, me and my mom knelt down before our son and touched the ground with the forehead a few times. We honored my son with the tablet, visiting and praying for my son everyday. We bought a birdbath to help wild birds shower as it's been really hot here.
I believe an important part of job search is networking and luck - and I'm lacking both. Luckily with the help of Uchicago prof's connection, I got into contact with a principle software engineer at a US top cybersecurity company. The issue is I don't have a US visa and I'm currently kind of trapped in Canada, waiting for my permanent resident to get approved.
I knew my uncle didn't want to go before he died from cancer. It's very possible my grandma's dog helped my uncle cross over. Our tradition believes that a deceased family member could take away something deeply cherished by other family members. And in the case of my son, I think it's possible that my friend B took my son with her, as she was resentful and angry before her passing. We shouldn't have let her husband visit our home so soon, which could potentially made her target my family instead of her own family. Weird and bad things started to happen to my family, one next to another after his visit. Since my son's passing, those things have came to a complete stop. I do believe my son protected us.
The day before my son's passing I did notice something a little out of the ordinary. I asked my son to stay outside my room for awhile cuz I was busy making a phone call. I tried to call my son back after 5-10 min, but my son just perched outside and wouldn't want to come in. This has never happened before. Also on that day I was feeling sad for some other reasons, we cuddled in my bed for a short period of time and then my son got away and went to do his own business on my bed. That night, I allowed my son to nest for 2 hours in my shirt (longer than I usually allowed him to) before he went to sleep. At around 11 pm, I opened my son's cage because I wanted to cuddle with my son again. My son approached the door, looked at me, made a cute noise and then went back to sleep. Again, a little weird. Normally he would cuddle with me no matter the time.
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There have been ongoing signs of my son contacting me from the afterlife. The most obvious sign is what I described in my post #34. I could also smell the scent of my sun in random places in my house.
Soon after my son's passing, a female robin made a nest on my neighbor's door and laid eggs. I would routinely go visit my son's grave in the afternoon and then go out for a run. Every time I got out of my house, I would see 1-2 robins land near me, coming from either my tree or nearby trees and start looking for food. Sometimes they even approach me or follow me across the street. I usually just go for a quick run around our community. They would disappear before I came back. Today the male robin landed in front of me after I crossed the street, and he started eating a worm on the walkway. I called him by the name of my son. He was not afraid of me. I know robins symbolize rebirth, and it is believed that seeing a robin is a sign of a deceased loved one nearby.
This morning I asked my son to show me his location as I visited his grave. On the way back to my house, I saw a big yellow butterfly flying by and into the sky. Butterflies are kind of rare here.
It's getting really hot here and we put out a birdbath for wild birds to shower in our backyard. 2 days ago I saw a robin landed on my fence, about 1-2 meters away from my son's grave. He was staying in the shade (there is a big tree next to my son's grave), stretching his wings and legs for at least 10 minutes. His actions were so similar to that of my son's, just like the pigeon I described in my post #34! My son would always start stretching his wings and legs after cuddling with me. He only did that when he felt super secure and cozy. The fact that 2 wild birds did that near my son's grave while I was watching, is extraordinary.
I think your dream means you really miss your ducklings. Were they kind of hinting you of something in the dream? My son has not shown up in my dream at all. A few nights ago, I had a dream of a blue-greenish bird (like a kingfisher) chasing after me and the bird kept touching my hand. Last night I had a dream of a view of my front door and the robin nest. Even though I hope my son would be reincarnated as a human / sun conure, there is a possibility that he might choose to reincarnate as a robin right next to me. It's close to hatching time.
I have not planned to contact a pet psychic. I'm trying to connect with my son directly. Their fees are super high and I'm not sure if they could really tell me whether my son is reincarnated, and if so, where.
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I also had one chick (baby chicken). I love her so much but she didn't actually live long enough to become a chicken. I was so sad when I lost her that I cried for 3 months and I wrote a book about her that helped me get over the pain. Nice to meet you 
