bug_n_flock
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- Jan 2, 2018
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- B&G Macaw, Galah, 5 cockatiels, 50 billion and a half budgies. We breed and do rescue. Too many to list each individual's name and age etc, but they are each individuals and loved dearly.
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Today we got dug out(and I had an absolutely horrid day).
IDK who knows what where, but I am diagnosed PTSD. Some days are better than others, today was absolutely awful. I woke up in the middle of a nightmare with my heart pounding out of my chest when my alarm went off in the AM. Mr. Bug stepped out to the restroom and didn't know what was up. The water contractor was here so he then ducked down to the bridge. I fell back asleep and had another nightmare and woke up again heart pounding.... Mr. Bug nowhere to be found. He had gotten distracted chatting and then had had to lie down(has a blood pressure thing where his blood pressure sometimes falls if he stands too long and isn't well rested, hydrated, fed, etc.). He came back to the house and I got up. It was just a dream and after a little while I was ok again.. spent the AM with Freedom(who is trying to nest in the corner of the room, so yaaaay hormonal "half" tame macaw). When I came out of the room Mr. Bug was nowhere to be found. I texted and he said he was at the bridge and almost done. I sent another message asking if he was staying hydrated and out of the sun. He responded that he was, so I moved on to other things. Last night's fire was still smouldering, so I built it back up and enjoyed the fire and being outside for a while... and then longer.... I texted again after 2 hours had passed and he again said they were almost done. I pointed out he had said that 2 hours ago and he replyed he lost track of time and a few minutes later came back. The water guy is quickly becoming a friend. I don't fault Mr. Bug for losing track of time while chatting with a new friend, but I by that time was having a very rough time with some dark stuff going on upstairs.
We decided to go for a drive and get pizza for dinner, maybe a change of scenery would help. We got a few miles down the road when we spot this guy in the middle of the road:
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Obviously we pulled over and picked him up.
We kept driving for a while, not wanting to let shy Pete out somewhere where he would get pancaked on the road. Well... lets just say shy Pete doesn't have a shy bladder... he peed ALL OVER ME. Now, normally I would think this hilarious, and looking back it is already funny, but at the time it was *WAY* more than I could handle and, after letting him out in a nice area in the national forest, I completely lost it. Completely. Talking full on sobbing. Done. Over. All I could handle. It was awful.
And then we went and got pizza, I was no longer sobbing but still way in a bad way. We came home and ate by the fire and I freaked out more. And now we are inside about to watch a tv show and go to bed. I am better than I was, ish, but still not great. Sorry if tmi, but I do sort of look at this parrot forum as one of my main social outlets. I mean, there aren't exactly a heck of a lot of people around out here. Eta: I don't dislike the solitude(I love it in fact), I just also do enjoy talking to people some times. This site fills a lot of that desire for human contact.
IDK who knows what where, but I am diagnosed PTSD. Some days are better than others, today was absolutely awful. I woke up in the middle of a nightmare with my heart pounding out of my chest when my alarm went off in the AM. Mr. Bug stepped out to the restroom and didn't know what was up. The water contractor was here so he then ducked down to the bridge. I fell back asleep and had another nightmare and woke up again heart pounding.... Mr. Bug nowhere to be found. He had gotten distracted chatting and then had had to lie down(has a blood pressure thing where his blood pressure sometimes falls if he stands too long and isn't well rested, hydrated, fed, etc.). He came back to the house and I got up. It was just a dream and after a little while I was ok again.. spent the AM with Freedom(who is trying to nest in the corner of the room, so yaaaay hormonal "half" tame macaw). When I came out of the room Mr. Bug was nowhere to be found. I texted and he said he was at the bridge and almost done. I sent another message asking if he was staying hydrated and out of the sun. He responded that he was, so I moved on to other things. Last night's fire was still smouldering, so I built it back up and enjoyed the fire and being outside for a while... and then longer.... I texted again after 2 hours had passed and he again said they were almost done. I pointed out he had said that 2 hours ago and he replyed he lost track of time and a few minutes later came back. The water guy is quickly becoming a friend. I don't fault Mr. Bug for losing track of time while chatting with a new friend, but I by that time was having a very rough time with some dark stuff going on upstairs.
We decided to go for a drive and get pizza for dinner, maybe a change of scenery would help. We got a few miles down the road when we spot this guy in the middle of the road:
View attachment 22587
Obviously we pulled over and picked him up.
We kept driving for a while, not wanting to let shy Pete out somewhere where he would get pancaked on the road. Well... lets just say shy Pete doesn't have a shy bladder... he peed ALL OVER ME. Now, normally I would think this hilarious, and looking back it is already funny, but at the time it was *WAY* more than I could handle and, after letting him out in a nice area in the national forest, I completely lost it. Completely. Talking full on sobbing. Done. Over. All I could handle. It was awful.
And then we went and got pizza, I was no longer sobbing but still way in a bad way. We came home and ate by the fire and I freaked out more. And now we are inside about to watch a tv show and go to bed. I am better than I was, ish, but still not great. Sorry if tmi, but I do sort of look at this parrot forum as one of my main social outlets. I mean, there aren't exactly a heck of a lot of people around out here. Eta: I don't dislike the solitude(I love it in fact), I just also do enjoy talking to people some times. This site fills a lot of that desire for human contact.
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