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OMG! Not again....

I am soooo sorry. I know how much you loved that bird - and so did she!
 
This is so heartbreaking. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling. Sending good thoughts and love your way.
 
Sending cyber hugs your way. Terribly sorry for your loss.
 
There are no words that I can say that could even begin to touch on the incredible pain you are going through, much less alleviate it in any way.

I know that you may not believe me, but please, please remember...

This is not your fault. We're human. None of us are perfect, nor can we avoid any and all accidents.

I've never met anyone with enough precognition to avoid the death of a loved one.

Jillie was incredibly blessed to have been loved by you, just as you were fortunate to have shared your life with such an amazing creature.

May she fly high, beautiful girl.
 
I feel so incredibly bad for you :( I'm so sorry for what happened <3
 
Oh my gosh... I'm so, so sorry that had to happen. The world has lost another wonderfully bright light and feathered soul. :(
 
ell;493458]I am not going to go into great detail, making this post has taken me a while and I am still so upset about what happen.
A co worker of my husbands and his wife asked to stop over on Memorial day they had their small dog with them. It was hot and muggy that day here so we said they could bring the dog in.

I put Brady and Willow in their cages in the living room locked in while they were here. Jillie Bean was in the bird room out as usual but the door was shut or so we thought. This house is older and sometimes unless you pull the knob tightly and give it a twist it doesn't always engage. We were all out in the studio which is at the other end of the house from the bedrooms. I didn't see that the dog had left the studio but he had. By the time we heard the noise and I ran into the room the dog had attacked Jillie. He must have pushed the door open with his nose. Scared her enough to make her fly landing on the floor. I am just not sure. She was attacked badly I picked her up knowing she was in shock from the damage I ran to my room holding her and to get something to wrap her in. She died before I could get her wrapped up or even call the vet.

I could not come back out, I asked my husband to see them and their f-ing dog out. I really did want to strangle them all. According to my husband they were apologetic and things have been strained between the man and my husband at work. I have gone in a million different terrible emotions over this. Mad at them for not watching their dog, mad at the dog, mad at myself for not double checking the door to the bird room, mad at my husband because he was the last person in the room. But mostly just deeply sad over the loss of my beautiful diva. I can't look at her pictures right now.. it just devastates me.

So close on the heels of losing Gidget at my friends house (electrical) fire I am overwhelmed to say the least. So I have not been able to get on here or contribute to the forum. I still will not be on as much as I was at least for a while anyway. I process grief a little differently, I appreciate solitude and busy work. I don't seek out comfort (my poor husband) touching me or hugging me while I am breaking just makes it worse so I tend to isolate and keep to busy work until I have processed it some what on my own.[/QUOTE]



Ohhhhhh my God. I sat here with my mouth open and not knowing exactly what to say... It brought back memories of Reese....happened so very similar to what you described, but it was our dogs.
I scolded them up one side and down the other. (yelling, not strangling them) but yelled at them for at least 3 hours...They won't even look at the other birds now.
I won't go into detail....but can relate deeply in your loss. Such a lovely bird....I hear all the time of cats or dogs getting a bird and the people that tell me ohhh I must not like cats or dogs... !! Cat's and dogs are preditors...they will (given the chance) will take down a bird. Ours did...my wife's dogs
..As long as they keep away from my birds...they'll live.
You need a hug....so do I...I know what your going thru.
 
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I want to hug both of you right now.
(I lost a Quaker to my dog)
 
Laura, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the extremity of your pain right now, having lost two of your beloved fids in such close succession. The heartbreak must be staggering. All I can do is send you the biggest of bear hugs and to let you know that I'm there for you if you need me.

And please do not blame yourself for what happened. Life can be so tragically, and painfully, surprising.

It is clear to all of us how much you loved Jillie in particular, and I know it was even more clear to her. (Hence her Diva status.) You filled her world, Laura, and in doing so gave her the happiest of lives.

Fly free, beautiful Jillie. My Bixby and Suzie are waiting for you on the other side of the bridge.
 
Oh gosh Laura, that's terrible, I'm so sorry for your loss!
How are you doing now?

Fly free Jillie...
 
I am so, so sorry Laura...what a tragedy. I chime in with the others ...this truly was not your fault but of course that fact doesn't lighten your heavy heart. I understand how you grieve as I'm much the same...solitude is how I process. Please know my heart is with you and your precious feather child. Lisa
 
Reading about this terrible accident just made me cry for you. Don't know what to say other than how sorry I am. Fly free, sweet angel.
 

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