I got to see her. I hope she didn’t have any pain as she was so playful this morning and even rode nestled up on a towel in my lap as we went to vet today. She was preening herself and when I put her in the tub she was in she chirped and kept trying to hop out.
We are doing the necropsy. Won’t know until later tonight. Doctor was great and came in and talked to me. He even said her feet were vastly improved today from when he last saw her.
We will see what he says. It’s amazing how 62 little grams can weigh so heavily on your heart.
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Birds are so tricky....I hate it..I wish things had ended differently, but no matter what the results, know that you HAD to do what you did...You couldn't have let an infection go without risking her life, so you HAD to take her to the vet...same with all of the other stuff..I have a feeling that there are layers to this (even if the end result seems straight forward...), but I do not want you to blame yourself for doing EXACTLY what you needed to do..Again, the vet was the only option due to the poop and her current state...so you made the right choice.
Oh, we blamed ourselves for letting her hurt herself. I am upset because I took her today, as my house doesn’t have kids, so I was taking her during the day to be calmer environment and away from the other conures calling to her. Just my eclectus , who prefers to be away from the little birds and is not loud at all. Did I do the wrong thing letting her sit in my lap? Should we have left her in the one place? Should we have made her more isolated? Did we overdose her that first day and do irreversible damage? There are a million things that we could blame ourselves for. But you all saw it. We were doing all we could. Hell, she was so much improved. Even the doc said her feet were light years ahead of where she was just a few days ago. She seemed so happy compared to when it first happened. So we can blame ourselves but the time for that will pass and we will know we did everything we could.
I dunno if you can tell, but I’m not a small guy. I’m 230+ pounds. And this little, beautiful, sweet bird has crushed me. We still have her sister to help remind us of her and the joy she had while she was with us. She was loved and will continue to be loved in our memories. We have lots of pictures and videos of her as she grew, and we will make sure to keep her in our memories.
Kylo and Nemo as babies. We all will miss her.
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