noblemacaw
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- Sep 23, 2011
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- Valentino - Red Fronted Macaw - Hatched August 12, 2012
I'm so sorry for what is going on with you. My heart really does go out to you as I know how you are feeling right now. Breakups are hard and really suck sometimes. My recent breakup put me in a bad dark place. Bad enough to hospitalize me. Unfortunately since the breakup I have experience so much more loss than just losing my partner.
I had to find a home for Julianna my Ragdoll cat who brought me so much comfort when I was feeling depressed.
I surrendered my Scottish Terrier Mercedes to a breed specific rescue last weekend.
I can't take Julio our rescue Noble macaw because I simply can't afford the two birds. I might have to rehome Valentino as well if I have to utilize government help to have a roof over my head. I am sure I will have no choice where I get to live and I am sure animals will not be allowed if they house me.
I am losing my home. The loan is underwater by 20 grand and not worth saving at this point. I can't come up with 3 months back mortgage payments anyway because I have nothing left to use to save it with.
Way too much loss to deal with in such a short period of time. It is a wonder I am not broken beyond repair at this time.
I saw a saying the other day "the struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow"
The post it note with that saying is stuck to the bottom of my monitor and it use to piss me off every time I looked at it. Now I look at it in a different light. Because if I don't see what it truly says I think I would just fall apart totally and not be able to recover for a long time.
Although I can't see it right now because it is so hard. It is hard to see though all the loss I am experiencing but I know there is a reason for all that I am experiencing at this time in my life.
My partner deciding to call it quits then not even a month later starts a new relationship was very hard for me to digest and deal with. I know this is done and no way could ever be repaired. We are done. Simple as that.
So I deal with the loss of a almost 13 year relationship. I thought I was going to grow old with this person and build a life with this person. It only took such a short time for it to all fall apart.
So now with the loss of pretty much everything in my life I have to rebuild my life from ground zero. There is so much stress to succeed with having to acquire a full time job that will pay enough for me to be able to support myself after being severely ill for 4 years. At this point I am not even sure I can handle holding a full time job but I MUST be able to.
Time is ticking as I will eventually have to leave my home because the bank will take it. By then I must find another place to live which hopefully I will be able to take Valentino with me.
The icing on the cake? My Ex's new partner does not like animals in the house. In the beginning it was decided I would take Valentino and Julianna and Mercedes and Julio would go with my Ex. How can a animal lover live with someone who does not like animals? Personally I could not live like that.
Nothing is going to work out like you plan. Life is always waxing and waning and it is a *****. I actually wonder if I can ever be happy again because I feel deep down this will be a herculean task to accomplish and I just don't have the strength anymore to achieve that.
Valentino does bring me great comfort and I am going to do my very best to keep him but I have to prepare myself yet another loss if I have to end up rehoming him.
I wish you the best and hope things go better for you in time.
I had to find a home for Julianna my Ragdoll cat who brought me so much comfort when I was feeling depressed.
I surrendered my Scottish Terrier Mercedes to a breed specific rescue last weekend.
I can't take Julio our rescue Noble macaw because I simply can't afford the two birds. I might have to rehome Valentino as well if I have to utilize government help to have a roof over my head. I am sure I will have no choice where I get to live and I am sure animals will not be allowed if they house me.
I am losing my home. The loan is underwater by 20 grand and not worth saving at this point. I can't come up with 3 months back mortgage payments anyway because I have nothing left to use to save it with.
Way too much loss to deal with in such a short period of time. It is a wonder I am not broken beyond repair at this time.
I saw a saying the other day "the struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow"
The post it note with that saying is stuck to the bottom of my monitor and it use to piss me off every time I looked at it. Now I look at it in a different light. Because if I don't see what it truly says I think I would just fall apart totally and not be able to recover for a long time.
Although I can't see it right now because it is so hard. It is hard to see though all the loss I am experiencing but I know there is a reason for all that I am experiencing at this time in my life.
My partner deciding to call it quits then not even a month later starts a new relationship was very hard for me to digest and deal with. I know this is done and no way could ever be repaired. We are done. Simple as that.
So I deal with the loss of a almost 13 year relationship. I thought I was going to grow old with this person and build a life with this person. It only took such a short time for it to all fall apart.
So now with the loss of pretty much everything in my life I have to rebuild my life from ground zero. There is so much stress to succeed with having to acquire a full time job that will pay enough for me to be able to support myself after being severely ill for 4 years. At this point I am not even sure I can handle holding a full time job but I MUST be able to.
Time is ticking as I will eventually have to leave my home because the bank will take it. By then I must find another place to live which hopefully I will be able to take Valentino with me.
The icing on the cake? My Ex's new partner does not like animals in the house. In the beginning it was decided I would take Valentino and Julianna and Mercedes and Julio would go with my Ex. How can a animal lover live with someone who does not like animals? Personally I could not live like that.
Nothing is going to work out like you plan. Life is always waxing and waning and it is a *****. I actually wonder if I can ever be happy again because I feel deep down this will be a herculean task to accomplish and I just don't have the strength anymore to achieve that.
Valentino does bring me great comfort and I am going to do my very best to keep him but I have to prepare myself yet another loss if I have to end up rehoming him.
I wish you the best and hope things go better for you in time.
