Zim has passed

[YUMgrinder]

I woke up this morning, Zim was acting strange. Head not stable and wouldn't perch. I rushed him to the vet and they incubated him for an hour, gave some meds to help perk him up while they investigated the issue. He died an hour later.

My only thought is I heard him freak out in his cage last night while it was covered and although at the time he seemed frightened, but he was alert. I checked on him when I got up and he was on the cage floor. He wouldn't walk and he was lethargic.

But now he's gone.

I took him to Petco and they offered the sun conure but I passed. I can't take another parrot after losing two in a short period. I'm done. I hate myself and I hate petco and I hate that this poor baby had to come home with me to just die. I've proven to be incompetent and I can only think it's time to cope and leave the parrots to you guys.

I should probably disappear for awhile. Sorry I couldn't provide him the safe home he should have had. I don't deserve to own a bird.

 

[Jottlebot]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm not aware of your history, but it sounds like things have been tough lately.

Every time I lose a pet I feel the same way. I feel that I didn't do enough, didn't give them enough time or love and care. I always feel it's my fault. It's heartbreaking and it hurts like hell.

Give yourself some time. If you don't want birds or don't feel you can give them a good home, then fine. That's a responsible decision, but don't beat yourself up about it. It sounds like an accident.

Take care.

 

[Flboy]

I am so sorry, I know this must hurt terribly!

 

[Mom2Oatty]

I'm so sorry. How strange...I'll leave the investigating to the pros, but I sure hope you figure out something for peace of mind... ❤

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[GaleriaGila]

I am so sorry!
Take some time, recover, rest... but don't give up.
I sensed a very good heart and soul in you. I stand by my feelings.
Take care.
Don't leave us.

 

[WilliamKenyon]

I'm so sorry, this is awful. Don't feel bad though sometimes the rise things happen beyond our control, you did all you could and that's all anyone can ask.

 

[Inger]

Oh no no no. I'm so very sorry. What a horrible month you've had. But Jazz is still healthy and happy and going to work with you, right?


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[wrench13]

Wow, that knocked me over! SO sorry to hear this news. I made a donation o the Cornell College for their vet program, specifically for avian studies and programs, in Zim's name.

 

[promethuschow]

Sorry to hear that, you just had him.

 

[DerTier]

Oh no did you get a necropsy?

 

[GaleriaGila]

A re-post, but you were the inspiration.

http://www.parrotforums.com/questio...s-prematurely-passed-parrots-please-read.html

 

[Kentuckienne]

Oh YUM, I'm so sorry to hear about poor Zim. Surely you didn't do anything but give him a loving home and medical care. Who knows where the pet store gets parrots from? Sometimes it's an owner surrendering a bird, maybe because they didn't want to pay to have something treated, maybe the bird came from a bird mill with congenital issues. It doesn't sound like you made any big mistakes. Taking a pause might be good just to heal mentally. If you feel after a while that you still want another bird, folks here could help brainstorm possible environmental problems or help find a healthy bird who needs love. But don't leave us, man, you still got a parrot and we will need to see pictures of him someday...

 

[Scott]

My deepest condolences, your loss of Zim is especially painful coming so close to Peanut's passing.

Both seem to be tragic accidents and perhaps an undiagnosed illness. Please take the time to grieve and find comfort with Jazz. Take care of yourself and try to be gentle second-guessing. We are always here for you.

 

[Mariar]

I'm am soo sorry you are feeling this way...a lot of us have felt the same way you do....don't give up...don't beat yourself up either..though a bunch of us have done that as well. Parrot forum is here to help you through this..it helped me and may others...you may think that you are not the right person for a bird...but then one day..a bird..will pick YOU..and that's a great feeling...I got sissy 6 days after doolie passed away....I wasn't ready and I was still mourning..but that little turkey picked me..over everyone else has has not left my side since...it's gonna be hard but it's gonna be ok ..in time...sending you a big feathered hug

 

[PetoftheDay]

Sending big hugs and chirps from my wild bird friends. We love you, remember that, okay?

 

[SharlenaSharlena]

I am so sorry for your loss!

 

[misterharley]

there is a gal in Omaha, Nebraska that raises hand fed birds that is great we have 2 Conures that we got from her that are great she hand feed from birth almost she has a couple of other kinds of birds I know that she has a pair of Grays that were sitting last I knew

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[keakea]

I am so sorry, I know how bad it hurts. I lost my Green Cheek Finnegan 2 years ago in a horrible accident. One morning he crawled into bed with me and my son who had also climbed in bed with me in the middle of the night. While my son and I slept, Finnegan crawled under the covers and snuggled under my son in the small of his back. We found his little lifeless body lying there and a part of me died that morning. I'm crying as I write this because it hurts so bad and the pain is still so raw. I loved that little bird so much and its took me a long time to feel "worthy" enough to get Percival. I blamed myself. He was the one bird I had that slept in his regular cage at night and he slept in a purse that hung in his cage. He would wake up every morning and yell Yoo hoo! And i'd go get him. This particular morning i was exhausted because my son had been sick and kept me up most of the night so I guess i didnt hear him and he came looking for me. I think about it every day and will never forget him and the joy he brought to my life. Believe me, I totally understand what you are going through. I also know that most people in this world dont get it which is why it is important for you to know that your feelings are valid and there are many people who have lost a parrot tragically that understand. Dont beat yourself up, give it time, and give yourself another chance. Your next pet, whether or not it is a bird will thank you!

 

[YUMgrinder]

Oh no no no. I'm so very sorry. What a horrible month you've had. But Jazz is still healthy and happy and going to work with you, right?


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Yea, to me, it seems like the world is trying to tell me I shouldn't be a bird owner... but I also feel that this experience has brought Jazz and I closer. I'm just now focusing on making sure Jazz is taken well care of. She's sleeping on my arm right now at work. I spend so much time with her and I am thankful for that. I do have a hard time seeing all the awesome companion birds on here and it makes me want to fill this hole with another parrot but I just can't right now. so many conflicting thoughts!

 

[YUMgrinder]

A re-post, but you were the inspiration.

http://www.parrotforums.com/questio...s-prematurely-passed-parrots-please-read.html

Thank you!