Terry, I'm so sorry for the loss of beloved Phoe. He had such a beautiful heart, and your love for him was clearly evident in every story you told of him... as was his deep love for you.
Grieve for him, as I know you must. But try to focus on the miracle of his life rather than the tragedy of his passing. His time here may have been all too brief, and for now it is probably hard to hear anything over the crash of grief against the shores of your soul, but Phoe sings on within your heart. It is the music of his soul, and there is much love, joy and laughter in it. One day when you are ready, my dear friend, you will hear his song once again.
That is his gift to you.
You see, for 5 years you were his guardian angel. And he loved you for it with all his heart.
So now Phoe has decided that it is your turn to have a guardian angel.
Fly free like the phoenix you are, dearest Phoe, rising high on wings freshly adorned with brilliant, unblemished feathers. You will be deeply missed, but I don't doubt you will be watching over your person from your new vantage point. Because that is what guardian angels do. That is what heart birds do.