That's a heck o lot for you to go through. Big hugs.I will defiantly read that. The more I think about it I have been so stressed the past year since I married. I had to plan a wedding during COVID which resulted changing of venues two weeks before the wedding. My job closed down because of COVID so then I had to worry about being jobless and getting married, and while on top of that I was doing everything myself on building our first house! I had my first panic attack a few months ago to the point an ambulance came. I thought I was having a heart attack! My husband is a workaholic a lot of the time (god love him haha) so I ended up doing a lot of this on my own.
I thank everybody in this thread for pitching in and revealing all this to me. Sometimes it takes A different perspective to open oneās eyes on these changes of events over time.
With animals/parrots I think we often get reflected the issues we need to work on in ourselves. Challenges give us a chance to grow and it can be uncomfortable. Gosh this is starting to sound like a lode of sap but I believe it! When I rescued Penny one of her biggest issues was being shut down ...you guessed it , that was also a big issue in my life at the time( just ended a long relationship, mg kept me house bound, we had both given up)