Bogie's Mom
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Im sorry. Its really all I can say and have been saying. I am more than over my head. Its my boy Bogie. Hes a macaw and he is aggressive anyways causing regular injuries but now during hormonal season he is dangerous. I mean it hits like a bomb and it isn't if he injures me but when. Not being funny here...its like the relationships I've been in where abuse is part of the relationship and the degree is how much I satisfy his Rollercoaster of emotions...inse use, jealous, frustrated, just ornery n mean to me bc I'm not going anywhere....I get bit all the time. I think it's the opportunity cost of being a macaw owner. But this year like every year his hormonal time came...usually the end of January. But like every year he gets me good...usually a stitch or two...today he almost took my finger off...I felt the grinding on my bone....I never reacted. I surprised myself...I just kept whispering ouch ouch as I tried to loosen his beak at his nose area...then tried hid head area tugging little pulls as I held around his ears...then I did hold around his neck...not tight just to keep tugging....he kept grinding into my finger bone eyes dilated...then I held him like a football bent over tugging n tugging...I think the only reason he let go was bc I got closer to the floor. Then my little love, my joy, my purpose....he raised his wi gs at me lowered his head, dilated his eyes and went after me again. Im sorry. Blood was everywhere. My lab was right near me. So I reached over n grabbed him by his chunky but check area n carried him upside-down into his cage. Yes...by his but cheeks n tail...im sorry....so here I am now...finger blue, icing it, blood everwhere....one finger typing....crying my eyes out with nobody to talk to and reaching out to you. H e l p ! My thoughts...time to rehome....time to put down...time to sick him in the corner n feed/water....these are all thoughts that sicken me. So all I can do is reach out. H e l p.... I don't know what else to do....hes screaming now for no reason. I darkened the room...covered the cage side...pulled the blinds. Im reading about fresh veggies n no sweets carbs or warm foods...but its really bad. Shot???? Hes a male. Im at a loss and I've failed him. Its my fault. Please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!